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Email analysis. (Oh goody) Various Emails from various dates and various boys - interuppted by my brain's annotations. Here We Go:

>Let's do Survival Boy first. This is in reply to my saying I want dinner as payment for lessons. He asked what kind of dinner, and I said anything but potatos. He says:

"Oh so you would like me to cook? I think you may be selling your self
short. Besides none of my kitchen experiments have ever turned out and I
wouldn't want to hurt you. Is that your final offer? Could I talk you down to New
Delhi after Institute on Wednesday with the option of the dinner of your choice at some later date?"

***Young, not cute... but fun enough to dance and flirt with. Maybe he'll set me up with his big brother.

>Not-Doctor Boy, regarding a pic. of me I sent of me in my "hi Ya" dress from when I was little. After seeing Hidalgo I told him about it, and he asked for a picture:

"oh, you're so cute.? This picture should definitely go on the website!? Thanks for the pic. How was New York?? Hope you had fun and didn't get lost.?"

***short sweet, not enough to go on. Sums it up.

>Derek's Turn (fyi, this is a long one for him. He knew I had been a little down...):

"I got one of the last parking spots in the stake center lot. I sat up in the third row by the Bishop and [NAME] and [NAME], but my seating was surviving on borrowed light and not the result of celestial timing. I'm sorry you were cast out of the synagogue."
*Intelligent and funny use of scriptural phrases. Yes. More my style.
"I tried to call you last night, but it was busy so I called the Piggy Horns girls in Utah and they kept me up late on the phone."
*Young girl that are like nieces/little sisters to him. Piggy Horns is a silly game they invented when the girls were toddlers. He likes to play with kids. Proof. More bonus points.
"I'm not sure what your question is about, but if you're asking about any girls in the ward, there is little to tell and I haven't asked any out."
*That was his response to my simple question 'So is her name Emily?'
"Anything exciting going on at the farm today?"
*He calls where I live "the compound" or "the farm."

***Yes. It's fun.

>Direct qoutes from Wanna-Be-Lawyer Boy:

"How has the week been?"
*Seven Days last time I checked.
"Its been pretty good for me i think."
*Are lower case I's a cutesy thing or a self esteem thing? You only *think* your week was *pretty* good. Commit to SOME level of decision.
"Work is well and im getting super excited for Conference."
*Oo, and contractions without the ' . I'm super impressed. ???
"Ive been waiting six months for this conference."
*Last one wasn't good enough for you, huh?
"I cant wait to recieve some new revelations"
*Yeah, cause that's exactly what it is. 'The world's gonna end the day after we get the 354th temple.' Or ... ok I'll stop.
"and just feel the Spirit from the conference."
*It's a good spirit, I agree - but something seems a little to Happy-Valley insincere here.
"I have some theories about some of the things we will hear."
*Ooooo, do tell. (with the fresh garlic breath level of sarcasm.)
"Of course the last time i had theories i was way off lol."
*see - there it is. lol. I have a theory we'll get married. Oops, way off.
"That generally happens. The Lord knows what to address better than I do:)"
*Yeah, I'd rather be reading an email from him too.
"but If the sermons the GAs have been given lately are any indications there will be mention of Soddom and Gommorah atleast once this weekend. Either way im super excited."
*??? Ok. And I bet they'll mention Gethsemane too. Or maybe I'm way off. (Ok, I think I'm needing to repent now.)
"Tonight has been kinda sad today."
*And just when I was going to try really hard to start being nice! I'd hire this guy as MY lawyer, wouldn't you?
"Been reading about what happened in Iraq today with the contractors being killed and their bodies being dragged through the streets. Its sickening. I saw a photo of it and it made me want to throw up."
*That's why I DIDN't LOOK at pictures. The thought was bad enough.
"I just cant comprehend how people can be so careless with life sometimes."
*Careless is not the term I would use here. I am thinking more along the lines of what horrors have these people have been subjected to to drive them to this level of anger? (That was a lot of to-s.) People don't just wake up and think, I'll be "careless with life" today. Just calling them evil and saying they hate us isn't enough. The important question is why. Why do they hate us? What's the point of the message they're trying to send. Are we getting it? As a country, I don't think so. Ok, this is an email analysis today, not letting me get on a political soap box -
"This world can be a frightening place,"
*I'm not afraid. I LOVE this world!
"but isnt it like so totally awesome how we have the Gospel in our lives?"
*Oh, I know. It's like soooo totally awesome, dude.
[edit out more of the same]
"Anyway just wanted to say hi. Talk to you soon. "

*** I think he's trying to make a positive impression on me? I really shouldn't laugh at others expense. But Really! Maybe impressive if I were twelve. Ok, then again, maybe not.***

Ok. Maybe I'm not really as nice as I think I am.

I don't always throw airballs...

Nobody wanted to be social on Wednesday night...
Doctor-Boy had to leave quickly because he gave his sister a ride and whe was ready to jet right after class. He sat by me during class...
I gave survival boy another short dance lesson after class, but no dinner happened. I was ok with that.
Derek was the last to leave. I got him to proof my resume for me, as I just finished revising it for the job fair I went to yesterday. It's *possible* I'll see him Saturday. We'll see.
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Yesterday Doctor Boy and I ran to a grocery store to get some eats before the game. Of all the choices in the deli - I chose one piece of spinich pizza. So did he. At the movie he did the same thing. I told him he didn't have to get the same thing as me, but he insisted that was what he wanted (even though he complained about the pizza being healthy?!?). I don't know if he's just strange, or if it's cultural. (He's Chineese.)

Oh, during dinner conversation I figured out his job has nothing to do with Doctor stuff. I have totally confused a conversation I had with some other Chineese guy at church, and thought it was him. I don't know how that happened - and I have NO idea who the REAL doctor boy could be. We'll have to switch to calling this one Not-Doctor boy.

So the game was fun. I think I was more into it than he was, and he was just into me - but not in a creepy way. He managed to get his arm up on the back of my chair. I never nestled into it at all, but I didn't Not let him keep it there. Blazers played straight up better, but I cheered and clapped as a 76ers fan all the same.

Walking back out to the car, he was holding his arm as if it hurt. "Are you okay?" I asked. He looked at the hand of his "hurt" arm looked at my hand, took it in his, and said, "There, now its better." It was so funny, and no one had gotten me on that one before, so I had to give in. Silly.

After the game, we pulled his basketball out from his trunk, and shot a few baskets at the church. I did MUCH better than I expected myself to be able to do after not having touched a ball in years. The more I threw, the better I got. He even complimented my form.

I gave a goodbye hug.
In short, I'm trying to be open, but the chemistry's just not happening. I wish I was interested more on that level... I have no real reason not to - but, eh.

Slowly Learning....

Hopefully the title will work now, and hopefully commenters who know me will be smart enough NOT to use my real name. :0)

I'd rather root for Portland tomorrow, my heart is still in the west.... but as I'll be IN Philly WITH a Philly boy.

I feel slightly (but only slightly) bad about accepting these tickets. I mean, I'm sure there are sports fans out there who would appreciate them more than I do... but I guess just too bad for them. I'll have a great time even if it is just because I'll be there for free, with a guy who's interested in me, experiencing something new.

The Schedule is Filling Up....

Monday - Movie with Derek
Tuesday - Recover Health/Relax, Long phone conversation with Idaho-White (happy birthday to him!)
Wednesday - Tute... Will see Derek, Doctor-Boy, Survival-Bay... and may have dinner bought for me by survival boy (in payment for dance lessons)
Thursday - 76ers v. Trailblazers with Doctor-Boy. (My first pro basketball game!)
Friday - work a concert
Saturday - Busy ann day, plus a goodbye party in Deleware (maybe Derek can go...)

Phew. (are comments up and running now?)

Movie (Starsky and Hutch) with Derek last night WAS a go - and was a blast. I definitely could have gotten away with more physical contact... but I kept it at a bare minimum (and those were really all his doing, though I held onto the strings from the hood of his jacket for a long time). It's a power thing. HE will now do the chasing, and I will leave him wanting more. I think I could even have gotten a goodnight kiss out of him... but I left the car with not even a hug, but a very great smile. He even prolonged the movie by finding dessert afterward. In his fantastic way of teasing, he said he decided spending time with me was not *that* bad.

Controlling the Derek fun-ride will be so much easier now that Doctor Boy is in the picture. (There was a message from him - he called @ 7 last night.) Unfortunately... I'll have to do the great balancing act of making sure I don't break any hearts (too badly). I like Doctor Boy, but it's way too early to tell if there's any potential for really liking him, and I really like Derek, but I don't know if there's potential for him *really* liking me.

And there's wanna-be lawyer on the side. And another young one too, who I began teaching how to dance. New one actually used to live in a real live compound in Idaho. Not only that, but its one I know of... one that was trying to grow right near my parents place. We shall call him Survival Boy. He seems recovered and normal now. I think Philly is as far away from his own private Idaho as he could get. Don't worry... it was not the kind of compound where racism was a factor. I couldn't tollerate that. I have no interest in Survival Boy other than I'll teach as many boys to dance as I can, and make them pay me with dinner and such. I doubt I'll have to worry about him developing a like for me. Strictly a dancing relationship.

Happy girl. Too bad I don't know any of these boys well enough to assign them colors yet. Survival Boy may be a yellow....

I wish I knew how to make my blog look cool and stuff. I'll never be a notable blogger at this rate. And so few people know how fun it is to read about my fun life. I can't even figure out how to put on an "add comments" thing. Ok, so I'm really only here to waste my last few minutes of work....

But back to the kind of nerd that I like . . .

I might get to Movie with The Engineer (namely Derek) Today!

He's Bob Dylan concert going tomorrow, I'll see him at The Intstitute Wed., and he's at a conference the rest of the week.

Do I get to monopolize his one free day? mmmm I hope.

I think I'm too nice too people. But I can't help it. I'm just nice.

As a result, boys I'm not the slightest bit interested in... the slightly slow on the *social* intelligence side of things... get interested in me, and I have to be very very blunt in my disinterest.

For example... currently its Wanna-be-lawyer Boy. He does nothing but sit around at his parents' home all day and wait to hear back from law schools he has applied to. Oh, and he also has been sending me emails - starting last week - that go something like this:

"hey cutie. I'm bored. lol. Did you have a good weekend? Wow. You have a whole circle of friends? I don't have any friends, so I've just been sitting at my computer bored all day. Is it ok for me to talk to you? lol."

First - this doesn't sound like a high quality lawyer. My response reprimanded him for calling me cutie. I told him those sorts of names are usually reserved for when somebody has known me for a long time - and cutie is usually not a word that they come up with. I also told him he needs to work on his confidence/self esteem issues. Doesn't sound very nice, huh. But unfortunately, both my intentions and my presentation of my arguments to him ARE nice. I want him to figure out how to treat girls (like real people!). Therefore, he keeps emailing me. Five emails in the last two days.

His response to my "don't call me cutie" was "is hotstuff alright?" I wrote back and said, "I don't think you get it." I understand he's trying to be nice and flirty, but he obviously misunderstands me if he thinks "cutie" and emails full of "lol" are going to go anywhere with me.

If I thought he was cute - or if he had given me the impression in person that he was intelligent - things would probably be different. But I did say straight out that lack of self esteem is a big turn-off. Always will be. Don't like 'em cocky, but at least let them be secure.

Yup. Doctor Boy likes me. He sat by me today.

Anyway, here's that link I mentioned:
http://www.spouterinn.com/deadline.html

Derek has gone to visit his family for the weekend.

Doctor Boy was fun at the Luau (that was secretly a Fiesta in disguise... don't ask) and gave me a hug when he left. If anything developes there... he definitely won't be afraid to be seen with me in public. :)

I hung out with Derek's friends after and had icecream too. They are the general fun crowd that is pretty typical of who I meet through church... though not as cheesey. No, they weren't cheesey. Some things were not really my style, but mostly good folks.

One recently made a short movie that he showed us. It was really quality! If I can find the link to where it is online I'll post it. (I had to watch it at his home because it took me way too long to try to download.)

I think I still like Derek more than I should. Perhaps once he notices Doctor Boy is chasing me, he'll step up and join in the competition. Or he'll be relieved. It all depends on if he can figure out how he feels about me.