LIFE IN YELLOW

Wednesday, February 18, 2004

Derek called me yesterday for no real reason. That was nice.

I got TWO valentine's day cards from Idaho-White yesterday. I am so loved! Every day is Valentine's Day with him in your life (even though he's not very good at *saying* the L-word, he's great at showing it).

Tuesday, February 17, 2004

Oh, I never even wrote about Valentine's day, or Derek's birthday!

Friday, we hopped in the car and went exploring for a nice resaurant. We found one that looked great from all the signage, its location, and its presentation. It was right next to Wheaton Village in Millville, NJ. Well, the food was absolutely ick-ick-icky. It wasn't just my opinion either, Derek didn't like his as well. We couldn't even share half of eachothers plate's 'cause both tasted like garbage. They had drowned our food in overpowering sauce that tasted disgusting, and nothing on the plate could be salvaged from its flavor. Oh well.

We then went to see Miracle. Not what I would have chosen for a Valentine's day movie, but hey, I wasn't paying for it so who can complain? It was a Disney-feel good movie, that was nice, but it didn't fill me up with warm fuzzies. I got a right-wing America is always good vibe, though the theme of you have to work really really hard was good.

Goodbye quick kiss, no hug.

Birthday, I went over and made a mostly unsuccessful cheese fondue, and an easy chocolate fondue for dessert. Derek had never had any fondue before. I promised him it would be better than eating at the Paper Waiter (our Valentine's day restaurant) and it was true. He had no previous fondue experience to compare to, so he couldn't really complain if he wanted to. We watched a few episode's of Malcom in the Middle on DVD. That show makes me laugh. He let me cuddle a lot, and that was good. No goodnight kiss, though. Just the few quick traditional pecks on the cheek as penalty for dropping food in the fondue earlier in the evening . Ho Hum.

Interest wanes daily. Maybe Derek is just a moon cycle. It begins, there's excitement. It builds. It wanes.

He's still fun an interesting, but each time I spend time with him I'm less interested romantically, and more interested in *just* friendship.

Possibly time to expand and explore further options again.