One More Day

And I'll turn from an Oregoner to an Oregonian.

I went out to dinner with my Grandma (Gramm) this evening. I don't remember ever hanging out with her one on one. It was nice. We both enjoyed it so much we were in tears. I love my Gramma.

I also love that I will soon be in Portland.

Color Code Online - Free!

So my cousin decides she needs to set me up. "Oh, there's this online singles thing - you can look up my friend."
I do LDS link up, a networking thing, but a dating (meat market) service is a little beyond what I'm interested in right now.

Anyway, you have to sign up to browse, so I do under her pressure. We find the guy. 45yrs. old is above my dating range - and no, dear cousin, he really isn't cute AT ALL. Can I tell her this? No. So I just stare at her blankly and shrug.

BUT! As part of your profile, you take the color code personality test! It's the real one too! And yes, even according to it, I'm still *very* yellow. I'm more Red then I thought I was, though.
The service is http://www.ldsmingle.com
If you're curious about the color code, here's the only place I've found it free online.

In Between Life

(song lyrics)
(I thought I already posted this one, but I can't find it anywhere...)

It's an in between life
leaving love each place I go.
Sometimes I'd like to keep it,
but some feelings grow too slow.

I'm living in the middle
when some broken heart becomes
a new love down the line
I don't remember missing...
those broken hearts aren't mine.

(chorus)
I live in between
with a love before still mine,
living in between
hopeful new love on my mind.

I wish I weren't coldhearted.
I feel deeper than you know.
Sometimes I'd like to keep it,
but some feelings grow too slow.

(chorus)
I live in between
with a love before still mine,
living in between
hopeful new love on my mind.

(feel free to add more.)

Never Said Love

(song lyrics)

It's my first "Goodbye, I'll miss you."
It's my first "I want to stay."
It's your first "I hope to see you again,"
For our final time today.

(chorus)
But we never said "Love" for the first time
and we never said "Love" at the end.
Yeah we never said "Love"
couldn't figure it out,
but we said "Goodbye" today.

It's the last kiss awkward feeling.
It's the last game we can play.
It's the last time we're together alone.
It's our final chance to say -

(chorus)
But we never said "Love" for the first time
and we never said "Love" at the end.
Yeah we never said "Love"
couldn't figure it out,
but we said "Goodbye" today.

(bridge)
Yeah we never said Love
never Said love
Never said love, never said.
Yeah we never said Love
never Said love
Never said love, never said.

But I can feel it in my stomach,
feel it reeling in my mind
I can see it taste it touch it hear it
shivers up my spine

But we never said "Love" for the first time
and we never said "Love" at the end.
Yeah we never said "Love"
couldn't figure it out,
figure it out
couldn't figure
thinkin' 'bout it TOO MUCH, Love
Couldn't figure it out

And we said goodbye today.

Poems By Request

Ok, here are some more poems and song lyrics. I won't brag about quality, if there is any.


Long
It's Long since
I've longed
for longing.
It won't be long now.

Today
Today I woke up Beautiful,
and no one near to see.
Today I woke up charming,
with none to see by me.
They don't know what they're missing,
The things they'd get to see.
Today I woke up beautiful
and beautiful I'll be.

Family Time

It's fun to be introduced like: "Here's Yellow, the single one."
That was sarcastic.

Hanging out with lots and lots of family is GReeeeat. For doses no larger than 48 hours, complete with the ability to sleep.

Actually, I am enjoying myself, but I'm wanting a small family of my own.

The Single One.

Quick Recap

Derek called me. Chudak is sick. :( He still hasn't sent me the pictures from my Phinal days of Philly. Man he's a good guy. I hope he figures it out - girl-wise.

Seeing Idaho White was great, and I do still love him, but I'm still totally fine not being with him. It's back to priorities again. We did both say that there wasn't any reason there's not a possibility that we could get together again in the future. He has been learning good things about himself through the girl he's been seeing lately. It's weird, but I am so happy about him dating other people. He needs to experience more people. He still gets so caught up in the idea that everyone is going to react to things the way his first girlfriend did. It's so good for him to learn to deal with different people.

Idaho Blue was so happy to see me. He called me last night. Good for him. I still care for him and all, but I'm getting impatient. He still hasn't grown up and I don't think he ever will. I feel like a Pirate saying that (Peter-Pan esque) but some people! If he would just finish school, get a job, and get out of dodge - but he's still a good guy, and a good friend.