I had a deadline

See, all my wondering about weather or not I like Mvob was because I had placed a deadline on myself. I'm leaving early tomorrow morning for two weeks of training/vacation in Colorado. I was hoping to figure out how I feel about him before then so that I could either have no problem being loyal to him, or have no problem flirting.

Well, I didn't meet my deadline. I'll be going out with Mvob tonight, but it's still been a whirlwind of wondering.

Overall, I'm not an "I've gotta figure out how I feel right away" kind of girl. I usually take it easy. But now that I have that itch to settle down, things are a bit more intense. (I do realize that once I let go and don't want to find my partner right away that it will happen then. But knowing that and applying it are different.)

The way my co-worker put it was I've moved past the boyfriend stage to the husband-auditioning stage. In his opinion, Mvob hasn't made the cut. But, that's his opinion, just based on the fact that I wonder if I like him.

Who knows!

SO, the point is, what's going to happen in Colorado? Am I going to be totally not flirty, and then get home and decide I really don't like Mvob and have missed opportunities in Colorado? Or . . .
Absence can make the heart grow fonder; or fungus.

I guess we'll see.

Is it Cyclical?

This will have to be extremely short... I'm at work, and it's the morning when there actually is a lot to do. I just had to post a comment that was emailed to me instead of posted here:

Hi, was just reading your blog... only get to it once every few weeks. Your Nov 16th note about being irritated leads me to the question... were you paying attention to where you were in your cycle? I wake up some days and before I'm even out of bed everything he does not only irritates me... I feel infuriated. No matter what I do every though tthrough the day is that way. I've learned that on those days I keep my mouth clamped shut tight or I say things I regret very much. Then I wake up the next day and things are fine again. It's not that the things that irritate me aren't irritating any more... it's just that I don't have a problem living with them. could be a factor... could be totally not a factor. reading the things he was doing to irritate you brought up such a clear picture of [A Boy] (can't remember his name) who I hung out with at a roundezvous one year. Painfully annoying... painfully!!! Several years later we ran into each other again and he wasn't that way at all. But [Mvob] should be mostly grown up by now. Oh, nevermind. I take that back. I'm totally different than I was ten years ago, so is [My Husband]. Hopefully in good ways. Good people never stay the same.... usually they are good because they keep trying to be better.

Ok, back to work, more blog later.