I had a deadline

See, all my wondering about weather or not I like Mvob was because I had placed a deadline on myself. I'm leaving early tomorrow morning for two weeks of training/vacation in Colorado. I was hoping to figure out how I feel about him before then so that I could either have no problem being loyal to him, or have no problem flirting.

Well, I didn't meet my deadline. I'll be going out with Mvob tonight, but it's still been a whirlwind of wondering.

Overall, I'm not an "I've gotta figure out how I feel right away" kind of girl. I usually take it easy. But now that I have that itch to settle down, things are a bit more intense. (I do realize that once I let go and don't want to find my partner right away that it will happen then. But knowing that and applying it are different.)

The way my co-worker put it was I've moved past the boyfriend stage to the husband-auditioning stage. In his opinion, Mvob hasn't made the cut. But, that's his opinion, just based on the fact that I wonder if I like him.

Who knows!

SO, the point is, what's going to happen in Colorado? Am I going to be totally not flirty, and then get home and decide I really don't like Mvob and have missed opportunities in Colorado? Or . . .
Absence can make the heart grow fonder; or fungus.

I guess we'll see.