You think I'm awful, don't you? It's strange because it seems that everyone, except for White and myself, think so. "How can you have a boyfriend, and still date other people?" I face this question all the time. But I have to tell you - I don't feel guilty about it in the least. I have nothing to feel guilty for. By most people in the world's standards boyfriend/girlfriend = the person you're having sex with. To me that just shows the absolute lack of morality today. That used to be the world's definition for husband or wife! Look how far we've progressed. Anyhow, there's a dictionary sitting right next to me. Let's see what it says about dating, shall we?

date: "an appointment for a specified time; esp: a social engagement between two persons of the opposite sex"
dating: "to make or have a date with"
boyfriend: "1. a male friend; 2. a frequent or regular male companion of a girl or woman, 3. a male lover"

So you see? A boyfriend does not have to fill all three definitons, only one definition is needed. So I have many "frequent or regular male companions" and you tell me what's wrong with that? Just because I would much rather spend my time with males than females I'm a "hussy" (as a co-worker jokingly called me). With this definitions I could have many boyfriends who are "taken."

My own definitions:
boyfriend: The boy I'm spending the most time with and I know cares for me.
taken: Could be a friend, or frequent companion, but do not cuddle, kiss, or seriously flirt with because you would be invading someone else's territory.
fiance: Not only have you decided to marry, but there is an engagement ring on the finger, signifying your "taken" status.
married: Don't even flirt! I believe in complete fidelity, and if a married man flirts with me than I'm calling up his wife right away!
love: yeah right, define love. Love has a gazillion defitions and manifestations and levels. I love my brother, I love White, I love Red, I still love an ex-boyfriend, I love my roomate, I love God, and they are all in very different ways. There are common elements to all, and that is trust, the willingness to sacrifice for, and the ability to recognize and care about their feelings. I think this is obvious. I reserve telling someone I'm in a relationship with that I love them unless it's the kind of love I have developed with White. I have never told another boyfriend that I have loved them. Though I have, it's never been in the way or the level you get to where you say the words "I love you." That level has a sacredness about it that you don't just toss out to every person you've kissed.

So, do you still think me an awful person? I hope not. And if you do, then you will never understand what it's like to be yellow.