Love is Scary

For me, it's scary to admit to how much I don't know if I even believe, and the decision I make regarding "The Sacrifice Novel" will certainly be based on that. I appreciate the outpouring of responses. I'm not easily offended - but I also take all advice with a grain of salt. It's going to come down to my beliefs. I don't, and never will, think the church is a bad thing. I don't want to justify any innappropraite action. I DO, however, want to fully explore my faith and discover once and for all what I actually believe is the best thing to do. It's a lesson I learned way back in 5th grade - the only opinions that matter are mine, and God's.

YF realizes how scary it is that he's in love with me - and whatever happens is almsot entirely in my hands. I could decide to fully 100% embrace what the church says - and he could get hurt, and he knows that. Yet, he isn't letting that stop him from loving me entirely. He knows he could get hurt, and recognizes it's worth the risk.

Wow.

Funny how these opposites keep happening.
First, I love Derek and he can't decide how he feels about me.
Then, MVOB loves me and I can't decide if I like him.
Next, I know Portland Perfection is worth the heartbreak risk and jump into love full force.
Now, my Yellow Farmer has taken that leap.