Life on Sundays
I don't know where to begin - or how to explain how I feel.
Why am I shy at church social function-type things? I have no problem speaking up in classes (but not so much I monopolize). I have no problem being outgoing and wild and crazy if appropriate in certain elements (i.e. swing dancing/game playing, etc.). I have no problem having meaningful conversations with people. And outside of church settings - I'm often good at small talk.
But those in between class times, and after church/fireside times . . . it's not that I'm shy - I just have absolutely no idea how to approach people or what to say. Ok. I guess I AM shy. So it linger quietly on my own, on a chair or something - until I can go home.
I think I mentioned how in Philly Derek realized I could be shy and was surprised (he had met me snowtubing - time for outgoing behavior) while Not-Doc Boy realized I can be silly and was surprised (he had only seen me at church).
Maybe it's because I take spiritual things seriously and just can't look at it as a meet market.
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I missed my Philly ward again today, but oh well. I am once again in a younger ward - have not met a male over 23... but it's just one day so far. None of the talks were insightful, so I really had to depend on the spirit to teach me. This will be good exercise in humility, which I once again have been focusing on developing.
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The date I had lined up before I got here hasn't happen yet. The guy had a conference this weekend, so he was unavailable. He said he would give me a call this week, however. Wish me luck. I'll need it.
Why am I shy at church social function-type things? I have no problem speaking up in classes (but not so much I monopolize). I have no problem being outgoing and wild and crazy if appropriate in certain elements (i.e. swing dancing/game playing, etc.). I have no problem having meaningful conversations with people. And outside of church settings - I'm often good at small talk.
But those in between class times, and after church/fireside times . . . it's not that I'm shy - I just have absolutely no idea how to approach people or what to say. Ok. I guess I AM shy. So it linger quietly on my own, on a chair or something - until I can go home.
I think I mentioned how in Philly Derek realized I could be shy and was surprised (he had met me snowtubing - time for outgoing behavior) while Not-Doc Boy realized I can be silly and was surprised (he had only seen me at church).
Maybe it's because I take spiritual things seriously and just can't look at it as a meet market.
***
I missed my Philly ward again today, but oh well. I am once again in a younger ward - have not met a male over 23... but it's just one day so far. None of the talks were insightful, so I really had to depend on the spirit to teach me. This will be good exercise in humility, which I once again have been focusing on developing.
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The date I had lined up before I got here hasn't happen yet. The guy had a conference this weekend, so he was unavailable. He said he would give me a call this week, however. Wish me luck. I'll need it.
posted by Amberlynn at
9:02 PM
2 Comments:
If need be, I have a large list of Portland UU young adults... I know it's not the same, but then you'd have someone to hang out with.
-I.D.
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Anonymous, at 4:56 PM
Yeah, I am the same way and tend to be different or shyer at church functions than non church functions. I am not sure why.
PS. Good luck
By
Moi, at 1:52 PM
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