Well - tonight was Derek's only opportunity to have time with me this week, and he's out being fun and social again. He for once was (only slightly) brilliant enough to invite me... but I'm stuck at work until 7, so I can't be t a 6:30 dinner party in the city.

I give up. It's just not worth this. HE can chase me. I will not chase. I deserve to be pursued. It's time to just Zen it out with the boys. When it's right, the picture will be complete - but right now he just isn't fitting.